Mama

Today I looked at myself in the mirror & I was overcome with shame.

My belly stretched for you.....

This body bleeds; shedding away the layers of your first home.

Shedding away layers of myself....

I look down to see sore breasts that leak droplets of holy milk.....that roll down my ribs, maneuver past the many mountains of skin that lay defeated on my stomach.

Some parts of my body are completely numb from being pushed, pulled and expanded.

I can feel my bones grieving the release of my baby......

birthing you was the death of me in many ways.

I have met new parts of myself that I’m not quite comfortable with yet.....